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Lily Allen opens up about her baby loss, eating disorder hell

She also admitted that she suffered an eating disorder between March and October of 2009 that led to vomiting and other destructive habits, but acknowledges she wasn’t truly happy

Pop diva Lily Allen has opened up for the first time about her second miscarriage she suffered last year and her struggle with the eating disorder during a revealing Channel 4 documentary about her life.

The daughter of comedian Keith Allen and the screenwriter Alison Owen, Lily Allen is featured in the three-part series of Channel 4 documentary ‘Lily Allen: From Riches To Rags,’ which will be shown on TV next week, the Daily Mail reports.

Allen’s second miscarriage
The 25-year-old chart-topping singer was left heartbroken after tragically losing her baby late last year. It was her second miscarriage.

The singer-songwriter, who has released two best-selling albums -- Alright, Still and It's Not Me, It's You -- was six-months-pregnant when she miscarried the baby she had been expecting with her now-fiancé Sam Cooper.

Allen was away from the spotlight and kept quite since her tragic baby loss.

The 25-year-old chart-topping singer was left heartbroken after tragically losing her baby late last year. It was her second miscarriage.

Allen opens up about baby loss
But the British singer spoke candidly about her life, her miscarriage and even about her sufferings with an eating disorder during the revealing Channel 4 documentary “Riches To Rags.”

The Daily Mail is reporting that Allen and Cooper were left devastated when she suffered a miscarriage six months into her pregnancy and her pain at the loss was evident during the TV show.

"It was a really long battle -- and I think that kind of thing changes a person," Allen said.

Struggle with an eating disorder
She also admitted that she suffered an eating disorder between March and October of 2009 that led to vomiting and other destructive habits, but acknowledges she wasn’t truly happy.

"There was a point last summer where I had an eating disorder, I used to vomit after meals," Lily says in the programme.

"It is not something I am proud of. But I tell you what, a lot of people used to come up to me and tell me how great I looked.

"And I was on the cover of every magazine with them saying, 'Lily is looking amazing - look how much weight she has lost'. I thought I looked good."

She continued: “I thought I looked good and it was great to be able to try on clothes and feel a million dollars. But I wasn't happy, I really wasn't.

“I would love to be the skinniest minniest person in the world but I can't do that without being unhappy - I like food.”

“I'm a pop star, not a model. Don't make me feel s*** for not being really skinny and having an eating disorder,” added the singer, who got engaged to Sam Cooper on Christmas Day last year, a month after they lost their baby.